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After my second baby was born, I was absolutely terrified of having another baby. After the birth I had 4 operations to remove and correct retained placental tissue. Very traumatic.

By the time I had number three there was so much scarring that I knew things weren’t going to go well. Number three was born early at 25-26 weeks. They were never quite sure how many weeks pregnant I really was because I had gestational diabetes and her size was not an accurate indicator of the gestation. After my emergency caesarean under GA, I thought I would never go back.

Until… we wanted another one. I was surprisingly optimistic. However at 14 weeks I got some good and bad news. I was having a little boy. That was the good news. But I also had placenta praevia again. But this time it was life threatening for both of us. I spent my entire pregnany in hospital having blood transfusions and daily ultrasounds. My perfectly healthy little boy was born by planned caesarean under a GA, at 33 weeks.

DH had a vasectomy not long after. But every month I am terrified that one will get away!!!! I don’t think I could cope if I fell pregnant. The fear would totally kill me.

Are there any other Mums who feel this way?